Healing Aura: One Day At A Time

It all started at 6:50am. That's the official beginning, but I hadn't realized it until later. I realized, at 6:50am, that I had to go to the bathroom and debated with myself exactly how badly I needed to go. I didn't want to get out of my comfortable position because, being so heavily pregnant at 39 weeks 2 days, getting back into any comfortable position is a feat worthy of the Olympics. Finally, I decided that going to the bathroom was much more important so I sat up and leaked. I cursed to myself. I had avoided another entire pregnancy without peeing myself; not while laughing, sneezing, coughing, anything. And now, I thought, I had broken my record. I moved toward the end of the bed and leaked some more. I rushed to the bathroom and accomplished my task. Back in the bedroom, I riffled through my underwear drawer for a fresh, dry pair and began to climb back into bed. I leaked and cursed. At this point, I was about 80% sure that my waters had broken. With still a 20% u...

After my very full and overflowing first post, I think I want to take it down a bit to something much more peaceful the births of my children :) It is really my favourite thing to talk about! At 7:30am on July 3rd I began to have some bloody show. Not much, so I wasn't concerned and there weren't any regular contractions either. By 8:30pm my contractions got more regular and by 11:30pm it was time to call the midwife to let her know my contractions followed the 411 rule (contractions 4min apart, lasting 1min, for 1 hour). She asked us if we felt okay to come in, since the hospital is a good 45min-1hr away. We got there at about 12:30am. The midwife had some trouble trying to locate my cervix and decided to wait a few contractions longer before checking again. The next time she checked she discovered that I was only 2cm. She wanted us to go home and come back later. Just as she was saying this I was hit with an intense contraction and my water broke but not in a giant gush of ...

I was stumped as to what to write first to open this platform to the world. I have many things that I hope to "get off my chest", as it were, many opinions I hope to convey, and many current life experiences that I wish to share. Like me, this blog will likely not have a definite, linear vantage point. I feel it's too constricting that way. So, perhaps it is best to share what is on my mind at the current moment. Currently, I am dealing with some very difficult circumstances. Perhaps they can be better explained in later posts but, for now, I will only relay what is directly important to the current situation. I used to live in the United States, only moving to Canada the summer before I was to enter 12th grade. We moved because my mother, WL, met a man, ML, online and, after having physically met him "enough" times, decided to marry again. She was working as a home-care nurse, at the time, and was loathe to leave her patient, so she sent my sister and myself a...